GoldFyre (notnormal23224) wrote,

Shadows with Pinholes of Light

It's getting to the point that I'm worried about talking to old friends. My lover's husband and friend of mine is critically ill,and having surgery today, my love herself has medical issues that are serious for awhile(wrote about that yesterday), and I just chatted with an old friend from NY who moved to Florida and found out she has a collapsed lung and is undergoing chemo. Wow a lot to take in for a week. I'm keeping them all in my prayers.

On the good news front I got a raise at work, after going through the evil evaluation process that requires us to rate ourselves and lay out our accomplishments (isn't that what managers are for?). My manager who is great since she's only the second manager I've had at the company I work for who is an actual tech and knows her stuff disagreed with my personal assessment in a good way, saying that I'm my own toughest critic and she's been impressed by what I've been doing and how I've adjusted to being absorbed by her department. I got a very good score on the evaluation 5 point scale (actually 4 points since they wouldn't give a 5 to Superman, really it's against policy to give a 5 heck they start questioning managerial sanity at a 4). The raise helps but has been explained to me that it isn't the raise that will get me into the salary bracket that they have been promising us for awhile, that's coming soon (note: not holding breath here, this isn't the first time we've heard that and my manager doesn't control the purse strings but she can only repeat what the big guns tell her), well every little bit helps (and I do mean little). Personally I still feel like I'm phoning in my performance, I just don't have the spark I used to when it comes to work. It's a bit of a mixture of not really doing what I want, and just general burn out, I'm not feeling as bad about it as I used to so that's a plus.

I've got a bad case of wanderlust, I really wish I had more and discretionary funds and time to feed it, but I'm sure at least one of those will come soon. I just need to see new places, not anything special but I just need to be out and about. I guess being cooped up with the sinus infection and working from home are getting to me. Of course with a bit of energy I can continue fixing up the homestead (downstairs bathroom finally fixed and working, and now the upstairs one is evil), that was one of the plans for last weekend before I got sidelined. My last long distance drive was a Tennessee jaunt with fixed no destination in particular just a loop around a town I stopped in last year and an alternate route back, it was fun and the furthest I've driven in a single shot, but I was dead tired after that first day and could not do the same distance the following days. Last week was great even though I choose not to drive, and had a rocky time with Greyhound, I did get out and got to meet new folks at a great convention, Frolicon is now a fixture on my yearly con tours, and I wasn't dead tired from driving. My next jaunt will be a short one to Baltimore area and Balticon in May, sorry MediaWest but the drive is just to much this year and all other transportation is either too much or just crazy (shuddering at the thought of an even longer Greyhound trip), My last planned jaunt will be August for Dragon*Con hopefully that will be enough to get some of it out of my system.

Edit: Great news my friend and lover sailgersor husband has had a successful
operation on his ruptured ulcer. He's still in the hospital but Ward is on the mend.
Tags: conventions, found friends, illness, travel, wanderlust
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